Numb

By Olivia Uzuncan, TIWP Student

I’m not quite sure when it happened,
probably when I was 13 or 14,
when all of the terrible things going on in the world didn’t scare me
or worry me
or cause me to lose sleep
because all of a sudden I was numb
to school shootings,
to rapes,
to racist violence.
Another day, another tragedy.
And looking back at it all
as a 17 year old girl,
I’m not so worried about my lack of empathy for the survivors as a 14 year old
because now I feel for them, empathize with their pain, and want justice.
At the same time, I’m more worried about an America
where shootings, rapes, and racist violence are normal,
are not a once in a lifetime happening
but instead are part of our everyday vocabulary. 
Will it ever stop?
Will boys ever understand the definition of “no”?
Will we ever be not discriminated against because of our sexuality or race?
Will gun regulation ever be put in place?
I cannot wait to be on the other side of history,
a world of more unity than division
and more love than hate.
I don’t know if we’ll ever get there.
But I’m keeping my faith, and I’m keeping it strong.

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